hmm....ok...today is mothers day....i kinda did afew things today....like go to east vale...hmm...dont know whether thats the correct spelling...and also went to my grandma house(mum side)...i think to celebrate mothers day...and i was also kinda sad today....so yeah...
ok..the first reason why i was sad was because of the new house my family might be moving to since like normanton park is on en-block that kind...hmm...anyway...we went to look at east vale...and its like i dont know why but the view really makes me depress...its like i feel like jumping down....and the view sucks....its like all you see is trees and a canal...and the water is freaking dirty brown....i mean like its so disgusting....at least normanton has a better view....you know when the sun shine on the trees...its like so beautiful....but for east vale...sigh...dont know what to say....but other then that i guess it was ok...just as long i dont go near the windows especially when im really sad...maybe i might jump down...haha who knows....but...the most important thing is that if my parents buy the house....and when im lying on the bed in my room...I WANT TO SEE THE MOON....i dont know why but i seriously LOVE the moon(: looking at me makes me feel happy and like everything is peaceful that kind of thing...and its like also the area there...its like at pasir ris...and im not familiar with that place...and i dont wanna make new friends...its not that im trying to be unfriendly but its really hard...i mean the people in dover and at pasir ris are really different...and its going to be really hard to get use to the environment since i've been living in normanton since i was like in nursery....and its really going to be hard for me to meet up with my friends...cause most of them stay near dover...sigh....i really hate this....
And the second reason...i think the last....is that like i spend SO MUCH money on my mum's mothers day present and my brothers birthday present...i bought them like...you know the famous amos heart shape cookie that comes in the NICE heart shape box?...well thats the one...i spend almost my whole allowance on it...now i left $2 in my piggy bank....i mean im not sad about the amount im left with but the way they treat the present i bought them....ok today i went to toastbox to eat lunch...and like toastbox is just next to breadtalk...and breadtalk like have very nice cakes there...and my mum was looking at it and she was like WOW SO NICE...its like shes hinting to me or something...and when she got my present...she didnt say that...so its like...i feel like my present is crap to her....you know what i mean? ...but at least she ate...so it wasnt THAT BAD....but my brother....what he said really hurt me the most....you see i specially ordered the cookie...with different colours, patterns and stuff like that...and like i actually wanted him to follow me to collect the cookie...cause i was kinda excited to give him the cookie...haha im always exicted to give people presents....hmm...anyway...so he follwed me to tiong bahru...i collected the cookie and gave it to him on the spot which was like yesterday...so yeah...today i asked him how was the cookie? he said it was too sweet and i was ok that cause i thought he might give it to my older brother or his mum...BUT he said he put it in the freezer....so obviously his not going to eat it again...so yeah...i was really sad...i just dont know how i can make them appreciate the things i buy or do for them...sigh...
they just dont know how hurt i am by the things they say...and its like...even though im sad and i've been wanting to cry the whole day...i still control myself...cause i dont wanna cry infront of them...and i still try to be happy for the sake of mothers day....
bye bye love...
