from volleyball :/
haha the shit-est onion ring i've ever seen(: haha!
bye bye love...
Thursday, May 29, 2008
SENTOSA!
i went out with marissa and amos today(: haha we went to vivo...sort of boring so we went to sentosa which was also kinda boring...haha i guess we were too tired? haha oh well...anyways i tried playing volleyball. haha and it hurts ):
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
TOTO CHAN!
i went with toto chan today(: its been along time man! haha and i made two new friends(: , esther & andy(: their nice people(:
lets just take it as an effect(:
yeah baby!
i was being very ticko at that moment, heh(:
i love her(:
everyone, meet andy(:
meet esther(:
our gay faces(:
and that just proves she aint my half sister...ha!
bye bye love...
Sunday, May 25, 2008
To: everyone i care about(:
i dont mind spending on you guys(: because i love to see your smile at the end of the day and how happy you get when you receive them(: just dont use me i guess and if i dont lend you stuff that doesnt mean i dont want to it just means i cant...just saying...
for mama & papa(:
for mama & papa(:
bye bye love...
OUT WITH MIMO
yesterday i went out with M.K! whoots! haha(: we travelled ALOT! haha yeah(: first we went to bugis-city hall-suntec city-normanton park-vivo city-home. It was fun!(: and it was great to see normanton again(: oh and by the way i'll be back from sydney on the 8 june(: OH! and i went out with mimo today(: haha yeah...
oh gosh my arms look fat...what the hack -.-
bye bye love...
Friday, May 23, 2008
who are you?
i cant believe you! whats happening to you? my gosh i cant believe you! all because you like meet new people? made new friends? what about your old friends? we've known each other for so many years and now you wanna act like im just some kind of random bitch that says hi to you? shit it man! ah yah i dont want to care about this shit anymore lah...i guess i aint gonna disturb or contact you too...you want talk to me then find...i'll always be there for you...and if you choose to treat me like a low class bitch all because you're with your new friends then go ahead too, i just hope you dont tell them my secrets cause thats gonna really go over the limit >:/
P.S. I miss you...are you still the one i have dirty little secrets with? :/
P.S. I miss you...are you still the one i have dirty little secrets with? :/
bye bye love...
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
more pictures(:
MORE PICTURES(:
you make me give up...i wont give a shit anymore...i dont wish to cry or get hurt anymore.
you make me give up...i wont give a shit anymore...i dont wish to cry or get hurt anymore.
bye bye love...
Monday, May 19, 2008
you're my bitch(:
i went out with M.K today(: it was fun(: we went to heren..and i saw this cute wallet from fossils(: but it costs over a hundred :/ haha anyways we went to pasir ris park after that(: i got alot of blisterS thanks to everlast shoes >:/ then i had to walk home bare foot cause i couldnt take the pain anymore...haha(: but me and M.K had fun on the way(: oh and by the way we took more pictures! but blogger aint co-operating with me today >:/ so tomorrow there will be more! MUAHAHAHA!
its all TRUE!
it says S & M(:
bye bye love...
Friday, May 16, 2008
hmph
well i had chinese tuition today...and i was talking to my chinese teacher like half english and chinese(: haha yes yes chinese...anyways...she went back to china like for the last 2 weeks? haha yeah then i asked so did your boyfriend go with you? and she told me she broke up with him and i was super duper shock...so she told me....like cause she didnt think he love her like deep down, she could tell...she said he didnt treat her like his number one...for him it was money and work...and it was like after A day then he would call her...then i started thinking about myself...about me...i dont receive any calls at all well okay maybe not AT ALL but hardly...but doesnt mean he doesnt care right? i wait and wait everytime...i've controlled for many times...day after day i waited...and night after night i felt like crying...why i choose not to say anything is because i dont want him to purposely message me but i want him to want to do it plus i dont want him to get upset...and i still dont mind bottle-ing it all up inside because i keep hoping...
bye bye love...
Thursday, May 15, 2008
second month(:
Sunday, May 11, 2008
happy mama's day(:
Happy Mama's day(: haha well nothing much today...we went to wisma for dinner, to celebrate mama's day(:
i got my mama that(:
he makes me smile(:
i got my mama that(:
i was talking while he took the picture, so you can imagine how stupid i looked):
he makes me smile(:
bye bye love...
shanny time
okay this is gonna be bullshit and i guess half the time i wont know what im talking about but i just feel like blogging about it thats why the fonts are small.
well...when i was in my papa car, i was thinking...like...what if i die to make people wake up? like...give people a wake up call you know...like theres a statement to my death or something...i dont know...i may be talking cock now but thats what i really thought and like i said the reason this post are in small size is for people not give a shit about it....okay okay let me continue....
like my brother? for example...hmm...like he doesnt show he care or love me at all...so how am i suppose to know if he really does...i mean my death does not mean im selfish like not care about whats going to happen to the people who actually 'care' for me but its a wake up call...like they just dont realise it until it actually happens...am i like talking sense here?
okay...its like im not even sure if he'll cry when i die...but if he does care then maybe when i die he'll realise it...right? well...i dont really want them to blame themselves because i WANT to do it for them...or my parents...they nag and not appreciate their still in their own world of sadness...but honestly i cant blame them...to me...when i see them its like their forcing themselves to do what they have to do everyday...okay i mean yeah people got to force themselves to do something but for them its like those...erm...how to say...like a barbie doll playhouse...everyday same routine...its like cant enjoy or relax...but suffer then sleep and get through another day and because of that..i guess 'someone' has to do something bad in order to relax or enjoy. Like...adultery? affairs...and blah blah blah...so maybe if i die...it can give them a wake up call to? like...maybe she will do what is right i mean their only together because of me...so when im gone they can be free from all the misery and heartache right? i dont know...or what if im actually causing someone heartache? if im gone it'll all stop...OH! if im gone then my parents dont have to spend money! they can finally give themselves a treat...i find like...theres not much of a difference when im gone...why? Because...from monday to friday i just wake up go to school then wait for my dad to pick me up from school so when i die he wont have to wake up early, he dont have to complain of waking up early for me, he doesnt have to rush through work to pick me up & and he can save petrol. And for my mum, she doesnt have to get scolded from my dad because of me. Okay then on saturday i just have tuition nothing else...so if i die its just one student missing...thats it. And on sundays, go to church, find people to go out with, have dinner with my family, hey if i die no one will notice im not in church...im always late for church and lesson and sometimes i dont even go so they can just take it as im absent right? and people can go out with other people thats no probs and dinner with my family...hey they'll save money from not buying extra food...see things will get better...but the ONLY problem is hell...if i die, i make people problem-free but i'll go to hell and if i stay alive, i make people suffer and i might go to heaven OR hell...but then if i continue to live...wont that make me selfish? But its like i dont want to let go, as in...i dont wanna leave God, okay does that make sense? like...i've got hope to be with him or just throw it all away...and i also dont want to make the ones i love suffer...but i do love God too...okay this i getting confusing...i mean i can tell i irritate my brother alot...im sure if im gone he'll have the best time of his life, im someone just clinging like a dunk...
and when people get sad its not like i can comfort them...the only thing i can do is ask them to cheer up...that wont make a difference either.
i really dont know what to do....i feel so...polluted... :
bye bye.
well...when i was in my papa car, i was thinking...like...what if i die to make people wake up? like...give people a wake up call you know...like theres a statement to my death or something...i dont know...i may be talking cock now but thats what i really thought and like i said the reason this post are in small size is for people not give a shit about it....okay okay let me continue....
like my brother? for example...hmm...like he doesnt show he care or love me at all...so how am i suppose to know if he really does...i mean my death does not mean im selfish like not care about whats going to happen to the people who actually 'care' for me but its a wake up call...like they just dont realise it until it actually happens...am i like talking sense here?
okay...its like im not even sure if he'll cry when i die...but if he does care then maybe when i die he'll realise it...right? well...i dont really want them to blame themselves because i WANT to do it for them...or my parents...they nag and not appreciate their still in their own world of sadness...but honestly i cant blame them...to me...when i see them its like their forcing themselves to do what they have to do everyday...okay i mean yeah people got to force themselves to do something but for them its like those...erm...how to say...like a barbie doll playhouse...everyday same routine...its like cant enjoy or relax...but suffer then sleep and get through another day and because of that..i guess 'someone' has to do something bad in order to relax or enjoy. Like...adultery? affairs...and blah blah blah...so maybe if i die...it can give them a wake up call to? like...maybe she will do what is right i mean their only together because of me...so when im gone they can be free from all the misery and heartache right? i dont know...or what if im actually causing someone heartache? if im gone it'll all stop...OH! if im gone then my parents dont have to spend money! they can finally give themselves a treat...i find like...theres not much of a difference when im gone...why? Because...from monday to friday i just wake up go to school then wait for my dad to pick me up from school so when i die he wont have to wake up early, he dont have to complain of waking up early for me, he doesnt have to rush through work to pick me up & and he can save petrol. And for my mum, she doesnt have to get scolded from my dad because of me. Okay then on saturday i just have tuition nothing else...so if i die its just one student missing...thats it. And on sundays, go to church, find people to go out with, have dinner with my family, hey if i die no one will notice im not in church...im always late for church and lesson and sometimes i dont even go so they can just take it as im absent right? and people can go out with other people thats no probs and dinner with my family...hey they'll save money from not buying extra food...see things will get better...but the ONLY problem is hell...if i die, i make people problem-free but i'll go to hell and if i stay alive, i make people suffer and i might go to heaven OR hell...but then if i continue to live...wont that make me selfish? But its like i dont want to let go, as in...i dont wanna leave God, okay does that make sense? like...i've got hope to be with him or just throw it all away...and i also dont want to make the ones i love suffer...but i do love God too...okay this i getting confusing...i mean i can tell i irritate my brother alot...im sure if im gone he'll have the best time of his life, im someone just clinging like a dunk...
and when people get sad its not like i can comfort them...the only thing i can do is ask them to cheer up...that wont make a difference either.
i really dont know what to do....i feel so...polluted... :
bye bye.
bye bye love...
hey you!
its dedicated to you, take care alright. i miss you )':
bye bye love...
Thursday, May 08, 2008
thank you.
i cant believe it, im totally dissappointed in you. i cant believe you used our names...you have no idea the shit you're giving to us...you're making us lose our friends...i know you're a good person but what you're doing now aint good at all...i know you're trying to help someone but you're destroying someone's life too...i just wish you stop and tell the truth...you shouldnt lie all because you want to find out something.
well...today i went to botanical garden...the most amazing part was the person i was with at my station...shes a christian and she made me realise so much things that i almost cried in her but obviously i didnt(: im strong okay! haha(: her relationship with god was AMAZING! well...i sort of envy it but i know i can do it as well but i got to admit i am afraid....to be honest i dont think im ready yet...yes yes i havent experience true love yet...thats why im not sure if i can sacrifice what im doing now or not...i know what im doing is bad and i am going to stop soon...it just takes time, one by one im stopping. And when im done with all these things then yeah maybe then i'll be ready...i think God planned it or something...its like...i dont know how to explain it but i know god wanted me to know these things...you get what i mean? she really helped me alot...and i wish i could thank her in a way(: shes a really special person you know...thank god i was with her if not i would still be living a lie...well at least i got her email...i can ask her more questions if im not sure...OH! OH! i got mosquito bites when i was botanical garden and i was attacked by ants! ANTS ARE MEAN! they bite like the world is cheap...anyways...im gonna drink coke now(: bye!
well...today i went to botanical garden...the most amazing part was the person i was with at my station...shes a christian and she made me realise so much things that i almost cried in her but obviously i didnt(: im strong okay! haha(: her relationship with god was AMAZING! well...i sort of envy it but i know i can do it as well but i got to admit i am afraid....to be honest i dont think im ready yet...yes yes i havent experience true love yet...thats why im not sure if i can sacrifice what im doing now or not...i know what im doing is bad and i am going to stop soon...it just takes time, one by one im stopping. And when im done with all these things then yeah maybe then i'll be ready...i think God planned it or something...its like...i dont know how to explain it but i know god wanted me to know these things...you get what i mean? she really helped me alot...and i wish i could thank her in a way(: shes a really special person you know...thank god i was with her if not i would still be living a lie...well at least i got her email...i can ask her more questions if im not sure...OH! OH! i got mosquito bites when i was botanical garden and i was attacked by ants! ANTS ARE MEAN! they bite like the world is cheap...anyways...im gonna drink coke now(: bye!
bye bye love...
Sunday, May 04, 2008
ART MUSEUM!
today me and marissa went out with yongzhi and jonathan yap(: it was kinda fun? haha(: well we were planning to watch a show but there wasnt anything nice and the tickets were sold out :/ then we had nothing to do so we went the ART MUSEUM! haha BUT sad to say it wasnt that interesting at all :/ tokyo art museum was much better...oh well...but on the outside it looks super cool right? yeah but at least our tickets were free(: since we were students(: and it was kinda a good thing jonathan and yongzhi didnt join us for the museum if not they would have wasted their money...anyways we should seriously plan before we go out again(:
GAY-FACE AGAIN!
this is how ticko we can get(:
p.s. dont go to the art museum toilet...it stinks and has no air-con >:/
our prove for being there(:
a primary school kid did that(:
we tried to do cross-eye(:
OUR GAY-FACES!
i was addicted to her finger :/
GAY-FACE AGAIN!
this is how ticko we can get(:
p.s. dont go to the art museum toilet...it stinks and has no air-con >:/
our prove for being there(:
a primary school kid did that(:
bye bye love...
Saturday, May 03, 2008
i love you,kor kor(:
today we celebrated kor kor joshua birthday(: even though it isnt his birthday today...we had dinner at the legends cafe...the buffet was yummy! it was kinda fun? haha(: anyways we took some pictures as usual(:
i love him(:
i love him(:
bye bye love...
Friday, May 02, 2008
i dont know)':
hmm...well...i dont know what to say but this post is gonna be about more than 1 person so it might get confusing.
you've changed too...its like i've been replaced...you dont care anymore...its like you really dont give a shit about me...whats happening to you? we used to be so close...you used to care so much about me and now? am i like a floor mat to you? you know now...im really not going to care...forget it! i may talk to you and i may not talk to you...but one thing for sure is that i'll miss you.i hope you read this and i hope you'll ask me who are you talking about...but if you really dont mind losing a good friend then oh well...i dont know if i should be pissed off OR try to spend as much time as i can with you just in case...
im sorry you feel that way but no i havent stop caring...if you dont wanna be friends with me then thats fine but you'll always be mine...theres no you'll have to leave then maybe one day i'll come back cause im never leaving.im always there, you can always call or message me...how do you expect me to understand or know anything when you come and just keep quiet and leave short replies and walk off without saying goodbye or like you're angry? or how you always say nothing? yes i admit i've change but that doesnt you didnt change...of course people change...people change because of what they've been through and what has happened to them...or at least thats why i did. maybe you thought i changed because we havent been spending time with each other? maybe...yes i miss the old times to...like how retarded we got...but we can only do that when we have free time at least when i can find the time...but i just hope you dont cancel on me...i try to make out outings fun but you should im a boring person.
why i cry? cause im afraid of getting hurt again...no please not again...i really cant take it...i dont want to go through the shit again because i'll waste half of my time again...it was hard for me after what had happened but i manage to get back im just afraid i cant get back again because it'll be so sad and hard and kinda unfair...i dont want to be cry myself to sleep, i dont want to be quiet and think of the good times we had in class and start crying, i dont want to be the one going to the toilet again and cry so that no one would see,i dont want to be the one lying saying that im just tired and i dont want to be one ignoring you cause i know if i talked to you i might break down...anyways i guess im going off now...maybe i'll edit this later or something...bye.
p.s.maybe you should get a new besta because its your decision.
you've changed too...its like i've been replaced...you dont care anymore...its like you really dont give a shit about me...whats happening to you? we used to be so close...you used to care so much about me and now? am i like a floor mat to you? you know now...im really not going to care...forget it! i may talk to you and i may not talk to you...but one thing for sure is that i'll miss you.i hope you read this and i hope you'll ask me who are you talking about...but if you really dont mind losing a good friend then oh well...i dont know if i should be pissed off OR try to spend as much time as i can with you just in case...
im sorry you feel that way but no i havent stop caring...if you dont wanna be friends with me then thats fine but you'll always be mine...theres no you'll have to leave then maybe one day i'll come back cause im never leaving.im always there, you can always call or message me...how do you expect me to understand or know anything when you come and just keep quiet and leave short replies and walk off without saying goodbye or like you're angry? or how you always say nothing? yes i admit i've change but that doesnt you didnt change...of course people change...people change because of what they've been through and what has happened to them...or at least thats why i did. maybe you thought i changed because we havent been spending time with each other? maybe...yes i miss the old times to...like how retarded we got...but we can only do that when we have free time at least when i can find the time...but i just hope you dont cancel on me...i try to make out outings fun but you should im a boring person.
why i cry? cause im afraid of getting hurt again...no please not again...i really cant take it...i dont want to go through the shit again because i'll waste half of my time again...it was hard for me after what had happened but i manage to get back im just afraid i cant get back again because it'll be so sad and hard and kinda unfair...i dont want to be cry myself to sleep, i dont want to be quiet and think of the good times we had in class and start crying, i dont want to be the one going to the toilet again and cry so that no one would see,i dont want to be the one lying saying that im just tired and i dont want to be one ignoring you cause i know if i talked to you i might break down...anyways i guess im going off now...maybe i'll edit this later or something...bye.
p.s.maybe you should get a new besta because its your decision.
bye bye love...
