Its impossible...No, i just cannot accept it. Why? Why would you do this? I know why, but what were you thinking? You left so many loved ones behind. Everything can be solved, EVERYTHING. No, this is just impossible. I just won't accept it. Even though we werent close friends , you were still a friend. How could you just leave my life like that? No...non of this is true...no... It can never be...I won't accept any of this...I just wont. No i'll just continue looking out for you in school and wonder when you're coming back or if you're just sitting in the office. i tell you, non of this is true...It cannot be... It can only happen when you're old...Yes only because you're old. No other reason...You're still here. But why didnt you listen to the people who gave you advice? Why didnt you listen to the people when they said they love you? I know i'll sound mean by calling you selfish...But isnt it true? I feel so emotionless now...I dont know how to react to this. I mean yeah people may plan it but not actually do it... Seriously, Why? Theres so much swearing around- people vending their anger and mostly sadness. What about your "sisters" ? What about your friends? What if people start to get emo and follow your example? Why couldn't you talk to someone before you did those things? And even if you did Why on earth didnt you listen?! Please tell me all this is just a dream...I'll wake up tomorrow...Nono everything im doing now...Every conversation im having now is just part of a dream...Tomorrow will be a new day ...I'll see you on Thursday...Right?
Hello eveyone(: I went to Chinese Garden to celebrate lantern festival(: yesterday? Since its past midnight. Haha anyways, it was kinda fun(: gay-ed around a little...haha....my rigt eye was super itchy had no idea why....i was tearing for almost half a day...but now its better(: BUT now i feel sick -.- haha(: Anyways i dont mind... And its like almost the whole of chinese garden was decorated with HELLO KITTY stuff...Couldnt stop thinking of Karei :x
Today was really cold :/ Very shiok but too cold :/ ANYWAYS I played with a 5 cent coin(: and im gonna play with the lovely orange heart my awesome boyfriend karei made for me(: OH! And i got for attire check today -.- Oh man...Its like i sabo myself? The teacher ask me to clip up my fringe like totally flip it to the back...so obviously i looked gay...I used my hand to cover my face then she saw my nails and thought it was long -.- Argh...I had to cut it THREE times just to please to her :/
Two are flavoured milk and three are confectionaries containing milk powder as an ingredient. They are: Dutch Lady Banana Flavoured Milk; Dutch Lady Honeydew Flavoured Milk; Silang — House of Steamed Potato — Potato Cracker; Puffed Rice Rolls — Butter Corn Flavour; and Puffed Rice Rolls — Cheese Flavour. The latest findings bring the total number of affected products to eight. The other products that were earlier found to be contaminated with melamine are Yi Li Choice Dairy Fruit Bar Yogurt Flavoured Ice Confection; Dutch Lady Strawberry Flavoured Milk; and White Rabbit Creamy Candy.
WHY?! Dutch Lady Strawberry Milk is so nice >:(
ARGH! Why china do this to me :/
Nobody has any idea how much i want to run away, i want to migrate, i want to change my name, and if possible i would like to go for plastic surgery, i want to delete my email and blog and everything so that i cannot be tempted to contact anyone all that just for me to start a new leaf. Its never the same anymore...I know im saying the obvious but i just can't help it...Its not like oh im crying let me call this person...Its never a "standard" person anymore. But then again if there was a "standard" she would most likely say Don't cry, i seriously cannot take this shit anymore, or maybe she already did? . But the sad-est thing of all is that not only things change but the person change as well...Afew weeks later, you start to realise that you don't know who the person is anymore and you'll start hearing rumours that you would never believe its true but the fact is, it is.
You hear songs that was related to the past, you walk pass the person's house and then you start to ask yourself Why over a million times but of course you'll never know the answer but just try to forget.
Hello everyone...I fell asleep on the bus again and obviously woke up at the wrong bus stop...Heh(: Anyways...You know what i realise while crying on the bus on the way home today while Xiuwen was sms-ing me?...I realise that i've never stop crying because i cried enough or because i feel better already or i've let everything all out...I realise i always stop because i force myself too. :/ HAHA ANYWAYS.....I want to watch High School Musical 3 BADLY -.- And hoping there would be a High School Musical 4
I dont know what to do now, I hate this...I hate crying almost everynight. If not tonight then it would be a guaranteed the next night. I hate trying to lie to myself. I hate what you're doing. I hate myself you know? But then again i will never blame you. you do the things will other people that i will never do with you. Im sorry for everything okay? Im sorry im so sensitive, im sorry for not being able to spend time with you, im sorry for treating you cold but i just cant help it, im sorry for sounding sian, im sorry im born like that and im sorry im not skinny and pretty enough for you. I wish you never ever swear what you swear-ed to me. I regret everything...I wish i had gone to a all girls school...I wish no guy ever came into my life. I just dont know what to do anymore. How long can i bottle everything? Im so confused with my feelings and people say teenagers are like that then when will teenagers stop having these problems? Or do adults just live a lie and put on a smile and get stress and blame it on work, children and money? I hate my life, everytime i have time on my own, i think when will you fly? Cause im getting prepared. And my thoughts will end with a fuck my whole entire life. And everytime im on the bus on the way home i would think what am i gonna do when i reach home? And most of the time it would be i just wanna watch tv and cry or i would want to be alone forever and just watch all the beautiful views alone...by myself. And it feels like the ily could just be a habit.
OH! I forgot to upload this photo yesterday...Alvin hui reminded me(: heh! I just didnt want to upload it in my previous post cause it might screw my whole post up :/ So yups. Anyways, today i went to meet Jarek. Haha and i watched The Lion King 2 with his mama, sister & brother(: haha. Then after that head home. Dont know why now i feel like going to science centre for the no reason :/ . Why i feel like nothing is the same because i can never find anyone else who is like you. Why? Cause i find that i cant find anyone who goes somewhere with me for fun its always go there for what? And if i do then its never just me and the person theres always more...But at the same time its good to have more since im a boring person but then when we go out...as in just us...its never boring.
bye bye love...
Thursday, September 04, 2008
PICNIC!
I woke up late today...I had a horrible afternoon! My thing came...So i had cramps like nobody business and i vomit-ed twice :/ Wow...Its been along time since i vomit-ed...But at least i felt so much better for the picnic, had a good rest on bus(: Anyways, had picnic with Karei, Delia, Najib, Shoman, Wei keong, Jeffery(sorry if i spellyour name wrong),Brandon Ho, Joseph, Jarek, Qin wei, Si hao, Alvin hui, Aaron, Mikhail, Eng jie . Thank you so much you guys Finally had my picnic i wanted for quite some time(: I say Karei brought/bought the best food there lah...Her cookies were oooo lala and she also brought jelly beans(: soooo AWESOME. Then...After quite some time of wondering where to go we decided to go to vivo? But dont know why we kept walking straight, haha and our entertainers for the night is the most "handsome" , "cute" , "best" guys you can ever imagine! Haha! And their Najib, Mikhail & Engjie ,haha their super duper funny! ...Then also dont know why we walked into Orchard Towers (i think thats the name of the place) O.O Second time going there and still freaky...Then after that Shoman slipper broke, haha(: Okay then we kept walking straight and ended up around Far east area so i decided to go home(: And now the cramp is starting -.-BUT I'm gonna eat my left-over jelly from the picnic heh(: oooo lala i've got pimples...
Haha act only
So sweet(:
Down Syndrome Father Haha Mikhail dancing.
Guess whose(:
bye bye love...
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Apple Pie for the first time
Hello(: Today went to Toa Payoh Mrt station to meet Toto chan to STUDY! Isnt is awesome(: haha! OH! And today is the first time i tried Apple Pie(: haha. Then Megan came over her place too...cool piercing Haha then after that i had to leave and head down to Woodlands to get my SILVER SHOES heeee(: The person was really nice to me(: Anyways on the way to woodlands something really touched me...Its like i was standing in the MRT...Then i saw this baby...And her/his mother was making him/her laugh alot then after that he/she started crying then this lady(stranger) was also trying to make him/her laugh but i couldnt see the lady's face cause someone's hand was blocking me...but then....When the person moved...i was like ohhhh when i saw the lady's face...i mean yeah everyone is beautiful in their own way but to be honest overall...the lady didnt look...you know...that great? But i could tell her husband was happy to be with be her no matter how she looked like which touched me also...Sweet couple(: But then again...you never know what he's thinking...Maybe...his with her for the money? Or cause he doesnt want to be lonely? Or he has no other choice? Or he could be having another affair? Or maybe he oftens go to Geylang...if you know what i mean...Who knows lah...The world is a crazy, blessed, polluted, confusing, complicating world.
bye bye love...
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
And i know you forgot.
Shes right...You people change...Nothing will ever remain like it was the first few months i mean sure things change but its suppose to change for the better not the worse. I understand that you're sleepy...So i choose notto say anything but let me ask you this question, Doesnt today mean anything to you? Well...If i put myself in your shoes my answer would be no. I dont know why but i know its not a big fuck right? Then why the hell am i crying now when im suppse to be studying? Because i did try to study but i cant! You know why? BECAUSE Im freaking sad! Shit this whole thing. Shit my whole entire life...Im just gonna eat and make myself fatter than im already am. And when i do this -> :/ , it obviously means im not happy )':
Hello(: Went out with Toto chan today for "hardcore" studying(: haha! with Andy & Marissa at science park and had lunch over there too OH! And i made a new friend today, Kirby(: ... then after that went to Sentosa with Darren, Joseph and Jarek to eat ice-cream & sotong balls for dinner(: it was yummy okay!
After AFEW hours of "hardcore" studying...Toto chan took my camera and wouldnt let go! So you should know what that means... She carries her bible everywhere she go -.-
Heh, this is so funny(:
Its all true...
I also know i look gay :/
Heh Andy only has one expression.
My schedule
Isnt Jarek "brave" (:
Why do songs make me sad? Its because of the person who sent me the song, the reason the person sent me the song and the song the person dedicate to me.
1)She love her blog so don't spam and rip it.
2)Tag before you leave, thank you(: and if you hate me andbut just come here to bitch then f*ck off(: thank you i totally appreciate it(:
3)People should buy pets from SPCA cause they need a lovely home and someone to love.
4)She is not only fat but ugly too!
5)People who are disfigured or handicapped or kinda slow still deserve a job.
6)People who abuse animals deserves to get punish! >:/
7)People should cover their mouths when they cough or sneeze >:/
8)People should spit in drains and not all over the place!
Hello Stranger.
Shanny LIM
1 August
Leo
Fairfield Methodist Secondary School
sakclabosh@hotmail.com
My best friend
is my son and my girlfriend is my wife.
1)>When I blast music,I wanna be in my own world
2)Sleep on car rides
3)I draw when I'm down but that doesnt mean my drawing is nice
4)Like to keep quiet during rides so dont mind me
5)I might talk alot and sometimes I just keep quiet,I don't know why but please don't say I'm emo cause I ain't
6)I go crazy when I'm sad cause then it'll make me smile
7)You show me attitude then I'll just leave you alone&if you show me more attitude then I have no idea whats your problem
8)Not a big fan of scary movies unless I'm watching it with M.K
9)>I've got a toto chan,two daddy-es,two mummy-es,honey bunny,mimo,flobble,boyfriend,tomato head,mash potato,mama,honey(:
10)I LOVE to have improper meals
11)Don't enjoy racist remarks
12)I MUST sleep with music and nightlights.
13)Hug-ing me when I cry WILL DEFINITELY make me feel better.
14)I can suddenly feel insecured.
Chitty Chatty
they make me very happy.
orange boxer(: sea monkeys!-Thank you Jeremy (: Someone giving/buying me a sunflower<3-Thank you Delia(:
A bouqet of sunflowers<3
VANS shoe Happy Therapy Ball(:-Thank you Derek(:
Bagde,Purse,Mini GiGi doll fromForest 'N' Trees Converse shoe!
shorts from new urban male<3
watch thesunrisewith somebody<3
go to Singapore Museum!
lie on a huge field and watch the clouds i wanna watch the moon with somebody): ,-thank you marissa,jarek & jing xiang(: have a picnic<3-Thank you Karei,Delia,Najib,Shoman,Wei Keong,Mikhail,Eng jie,Si hao,Qin wei,Jarek,Joseph,Brandon ho,Jeffery i wanna go back toNORMANTON PARK(:-thank you marissa(: i wanna go to the art museum(:-thank you marissa and yongzhi & jonathan for accompanying us there(:
To my friends: Please tell my parents about my blog so that they can read this, thank you(:
1)i want my funeral to have music!
the first song that MUST be played is On the side of me by Corrinne May because it mean something to me
the second song will be 1,2,3,4 by Plain White T's because its dedicated to Theng thumb for the sake of memories
the third song will be Beautiful Liar by Shakira & Beyonce because there were good memories to that song
the fourth song will be Tonight by FM Static because it reminds me of kor kor Joshua
the fifth song will be One last breath by Creed because i assume the lyrics were hints but i was too stupid to realise and too late to do anything
then the rest of the songs will be played through my ipod and when all the songs have been played and if there are still people around
play more music through kor kor joshua's mp3.
2)my camera and ipod will go to marissa
3)my clothes and stuff toys will be given to charity
4)my savings will be given to my parents to pay off their debts
5)my handphones can be thrown away
6)my laptop can be given to the less fortunate
7)i want my body to be cremated
8)you can visit my urn once a year(: on my birthday or when you're bored
9)for my parents, when you come please bring a sun flower, you can bring other blah blah blahs but just bring a sun flower
10)my drawings can be given to Benedict Lim
11)all my voodoo dolls can be thrown away
12)i want my current pet to be kept with my mum
13)all of my photographs can be burnt away
14)everything that my friends have given me can be given back to them including the letters and the memories we ever had together
15)and i guess my close friends and family will be given a letter.
